7 years

First heard of Lukas Graham through my son Mahonrai who is serving a mission now.  One of his favorite song back then was "Drunk in The Morning".  I came across 7 years a couple days ago while listening to my son's songs on Soundcloud and 7 years was promoted.  Listened to it and I was hooked.  Mainly because, it gives a timeline that makes me hold my breath while assessing my own life.  7 years, 11 years, 30 years and soon to be 60 years old.

How amazing all our lives are.  The chance to just have lived in this world and breath.  The bodies that we each have, whether perfect or not is still a wonderment on each own.  That we came, we lived and then we die.  Reminiscing when I was 7 years old, it seems like I lived another life.  Each phase from 1 to 10, 11 to 20, 21 to 30, 31 to 40, 41 to 50 seems like different stages of a big play and we are the main characters of our own movies.  In our minds we can rewind to memories that makes us smile, tear up or cringe.

While being a young teenager, I remember being so anxious to be 18.   Couldn't wait to be old enough.   Couldn't wait to leave home and live my own life.  Couldn't wait to meet my future husband.  Couldn't wait for a lot of things.  Looking back, I wish I had taken time to cherish those very moments of my life instead of being so anxious for the unknown.  Now, here I am and I totally miss my childhood.  Sometimes I wish I can just go back to being a little girl, so safe and well loved by mom, dad and so many families.  No responsibilities because life can be so harsh and if one is not strong enough, you're bound to feel defeated instead of succeeding.   Sometimes.  

At almost 52 years old, I'm indulging in my daily life cherishing every moment with the ones I love. Especially my two little granddaughters.  Oh how much I love and adore them.   Once you pass half a century old, you realize you have to make sure each moment count because you'll never know when death knocks at your door.  I cherish my children and I try not to judge them too harshly for the choices that they make because I myself didn't always make the right choices.

Thank you Lukas Graham for sharing your amazing talent with the world.    Thank you God for the gift of beautiful music.  What a dull life it would be without MUSIC.  

"It Won't Be Like This For Long"

For days now I've been contemplating creating a Musical Blog.  Blogging about where music takes me because MUSIC transport me everywhere.  To a Heavenly place, back in time, up to the future and sometimes it makes me cry because it reminds of someone.  Doesn't necessarily have to be a particular person.  No, people in my life, like my mother that has passed away.  My carefree childhood days back in the island.  Where my life totally depends on mom and dad and auntie Peta.  Music creates a yearning for things as they use to be in my childhood and the inevitable that only belongs to the future!

My baby girl Beverly Shania turned 12 on the 10th.  She's a young woman and determined not to sleep on our bed any longer.   I remember the day she was born, such a beautiful baby.  She's the last of my children.  All my girls are all grown up now.  Last night I kiss them one by one.  I shower my children every day with hugs and kisses because we'll never now what time may bring.

This song by Darius Rucker puts a smile on my face and a slightly small dagger in my heart.  Because he slowly takes me back to various stages of my childrens' lives.  When they were newborns and we thought the miserable and endless nights of agony waking up tending to them and sleep deprived will never end.  Up to the smelly diaper days where I was figuring out: 365 days x 5 to 6 changing with 7 children, two and a half years each.  That equals 30660 times of changing foul smelling diapers.  How did I survive?

Wheewww!  I thought it was never going to end.

In their older and more rebellious teen-age years where I wanted to send them back to the womb and let them remain there.   But this song  is so very true.   Especially the chorus part:  "IT Won't be like this for long...This phase is gonna fly by so baby just hold on.  It won't be like this for long".

"...He'd been up all nite Lay'n there in bed listen'n To his new born baby cry."

"One day soon you'll drop her off and she won't even know you're gone..." 

"Some day soon she'll be a teen-ager and he'll think that she hates him.."

"...Then he'll walk her down the isle"...

"One day soon that littel girl is gonna be all grown up and gone."

 Makes me cry all the time when he sings this line.  My oldest Sisilia is 22.  She's not married yet but one day she will.  Then one day soon enough, they will be all gone.  Darius Rucker is one of my all time favorite singer.  Even back to the days when he was part of the old timer group "Hootie and the Blowfish".  Love him then and love him now.