"I'm covering my ears like a kid...
I'm turning up the volume when you speak..."
This is exactly what I'm feeling now towards one of my children. Twisted that I'm feeling like a kid but for days now we've gone back and forth, back and forth. Words, like feathers are out there and impossible to get them back. There's no way we can control what people are saying and thinking. But when we allow them to come between family, then I want to stick my tongue out, cover my ears and perhaps run naked down the street screaming "Na na na la la la la la la la........"
Music these days gets to me through my children. What they're listening to and I try to zoom in to the words and make sure they're not sexually provocative or vulgar. So I always know what they're listening to. My son Mahonrai played this song and it just hit me that this is what I wanted to do to one of my other children. I'm tired of being judged by things that I didn't say and being held responsible for how other people thinks and feels towards them.
"Enough is enough...your words mean nothing I go La la la".
I love music.
"I can't find no silver lining..." I've tried everything I can think of to mend broken fences between us, but it seems the more I try the worse things gets. All I want is to be in good terms so we can all get on with our lives. Get along for time is so so so short. We waste it on anger and criticism. Ain't nobody has time for that.
As for now, I will resolve to ignoring anything that is said concerning this matter.
"...when you spit your venom.. I hate it.... when you hiss and preach
I'm gonna drown you out before I lose my mind.
When I hear your speech is tiring enough is enough
I'm covering my ears like a kid...
I'm turning up the volume when you speak...
I'll find a way to block it ....
We are all running out of time people.
